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Down Entry on: Apr. 18, 2004, at 05:27 am |
i sit hunched over in my chair, the sun rose a while ago, but it's still quiet- i don't have the energy, will or desire to move. i feel dirty. physically, emotionally, morally, ethically, fundamentally. sometimes, it feels like life just can't get any better, and it's been like that so often recently it was becoming comfortable- and this evening i got to sit back, horrified and amused, as a non-participant, as a chain reaction of things in my life crashed down one after another after another. hurt person after hurt person, careless person after careless person, well that is how it went down. i thank god that my family and friends are safe and healthy, though, through them things will build back up- they always do.